photography, technology, and unicorn conspiracy theories

I am Matt.

I am a father. I am a husband. I am a son.

I can speak with conviction about some things.

I am a change agent.

I am a smoker.

I am proud of movies I have made.

I am a college dropout. I am an intellectual.

Sometimes, I feel like a fraud.

I am working on creating a nurturing home for my children.

I am a Jew. I am a Catholic.

I have been a swing dancer, a filmmaker, and an improviser.

I am a nerd.

I like to solve problems.

I have survived verbal and emotional abuse. Sometimes I am afraid I am verbally and emotionally abusive myself.

Sometimes I lie. But I am working on being honest.

I like technology. Sometimes I spend too much on technology at the detriment of my family.

I am the child of divorce. I have been divorced.

I am overweight and out of shape. I am displeased with my physical appearance.

I am a pop culture geek.

I am a system engineer, infrastructure architect, thought leader, and rudimentary programmer.

I have a lot of books.

I am a big deal on the Internet. Sometimes I get too much validation and self-worth from what strangers think of me.

I am respected in my company and in my industry.

I worry about my relationship with my wife.

I am grateful for my daughter. I am proud of my sons. I am afraid they will not be proud of me.

I have survived suicide attempts.

I am scared that I won’t be able to turn it around.

I am disappointed in myself.

I have a stronger support system than my actions deserve.

I am a poor manager. I am a great engineer.

I am trying to learn to trust God, my wife, and myself.

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